Took me awhile to publish this.
This rejection knocked the wind out of my sails.
I chose coming to the Soul Cycle audition in New York City over being there when my daughter said goodbye to the only home she ever knew in Tucson.
I chose the audition over driving across country with my daughter, husband & dog to move to our new home in NYC.
In addition to the emptiness I felt from the rejection of not making the Soul Cycle cut, I endured the emptiness of a hot apartment for a week after the audition waiting for my family to arrive.
It was one of the darkest times in my life. I woke up every morning feeling literally sick to my stomach-now I know why it's called homesick.
For the first time in a very long time, I felt vulnerable.
I doubted myself, cursed myself, felt sorry for myself. I felt lost & completely alone questioning every decision that I made.
All I could see was darkness.
It's been 2 months & I am no longer afraid of getting lost. I now know that the journey back reveals something new. I molted. New feathers have formed. New realities have revealed a new way for me to fly. Deeper understanding of who I am, and what I can do. A stronger me. Clear on what I want. What I am.
I am Lisa Ceizyk, owner, founder of simpatico mind & body.
I am all heart & soul even without Soul Cycle.
I am a BAM.
I once was lost.
Now I'm found.
Was blind--but now I see.
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